I've reached par today, no problem, and I've even gone beyond! But yeah, I've cheated a tad (although there's no real "cheating" during Camp cause the main goal is to have fun with writing so...). So I've reached par (for tomorrow haha) but I've copy-pasted a lot from the previous version of the text. Although, like I've told my buddy: "Once it's good, it's good! Why should I rewrite stuff I've already written and like?"
So yeah, I copied! ^_^
But it's all good; I like my new version better. I'm writing it for me, mostly. No stress, no sweat, no pressure (well, ALMOST no sweat because it's still kinda warm here hihi).
Yesterday, I've had a pretty bad day. Mood-wise. I managed to cram in the words but the thrill was gone. I suddenly realized a lot of things that made me panic about being a writer (the readership's expectations; the pressure to come up with something fresh, smart and original; the must-do-PR which I'm not that great at; etc.) Tears were on the verge and thoughts of "I'll never make it" and the likes came a-running.
But I've had a stroke of genius (well, it's more thanks to the heat really): I turned everything off and went floating in a nice cool bath.
And I've come to realize something: I'm not a hardcore writer. I'm not a singer or a visual artist either. There's none of these things I wanna do out of a duty. I wanna feel like they are a hobby because if they're work, then I'll stop practicing each and every one of them come retirement!
And I've come to realize something: I'm not a hardcore writer. I'm not a singer or a visual artist either. There's none of these things I wanna do out of a duty. I wanna feel like they are a hobby because if they're work, then I'll stop practicing each and every one of them come retirement!
I've come to realize that the only thing I would always do in my life is dreaming...
I'm not a writer nor a singer nor a painter. Heck, I'm not even an artist!
I simply am A DREAMER.
And now that I've decided and accepted that, I feel much better! And much less pressured :)
So I'll keep on dreaming... and create as I go! :)
(Here's my afternoon activity ^_^)
So I'll keep on dreaming... and create as I go! :)
(Here's my afternoon activity ^_^)
You have inspired me (or maybe I should say "reminded me") that mixing a little creativity in my day is a very HEALTHY thing to do. Too much of one thing, whether it's writing or job hunting, can be demotivating. Time to pull out my cross-stitching!
ReplyDeletehihi glad I could help!!
DeleteKeep the creativity juice flowing! ^_^